The Bounce Back

Some might compare my blog to an Avalanche.......Because it just keeps gaining momentum! (WOW that was lame!)

So anyways,

Today was a pretty interesting day and I'm still not totally sure what to think about it. It all started at about noon, in my really fun math class. We had a class workshop day (which meant you are allowed to work in groups) on the assignment. As the kids in the class scrambled around to find friends to work with, I suddenly found myself alone, working all by myself. At the time, I didn't really care, I just started working. Things were going pretty well in group Shaun, until I got to problem #5, which was WAYYY over my head. Having no freaking idea even where to begin, I asked the three girls who sat in front of me for help. They also happened to be the three cutest girls in the whole class (so I must have really looked like a nerd working alone next to them). I simply asked, "Hey guys, do you know how to do #5?" It was obvious they heard my question, because they immediately stopped their conversation about what to wear and how drunk they got last weekend. All three of them stared at me in silence, then started ruthlessly laughing at me. I dont even know why they were laughing at me, maybe out of pity, but it was sure as hell embarrasing. I think the whole class stopped to watch me get embarrassed, and it seemed like some even joined in. I'm not even gonna lie, this cut me deep. These girls I don't even know teamed up and laughed at me, it was like they didn't even take me seriously (but I really needed their help). After straight up dissing at me, they just went back to their conversation and the assignment in their extremely exclusive group. I honestly felt lower than these three freshman chicks (I was down, but not out....).

At the time, I honestly didn't know what was wrong with me, I felt kind of pathetic. These three girls had me questioning myself, I felt like some kind of freak show! I was trying to figure out what I did wrong to get humiliated by these three freshman sorority girls. I played the question I asked over and over in my head to try to find a reason why I got laughed at.

So I just tried to shake it off and return my efforts back to problem #5. Hopeless and humiliated, I was just kind of sitting at my desk with my head down, staring at my paper. Then, out of nowhere, a girl from across the classroom came up to me and showed me how to do the dreaded problem #5. She was kind of a quiet, nerdy girl, who was nice, and happened to be my savior. I completed problem #5 with her help and turned in my workshop with pride. When I looked back, the three mean girls were frantically trying to figure out how to do problem #5 in the final minutes of class. They looked up at me (exiting the classroom in glory) and stared jealously, while I stuck my tongue out at them. The best part is, they never finished the workshop and they seemed PISSED about it.

So like I said before, I don't really know what to take away from this experience. Maybe it's to not question yourself or lower yourself to anyone.....ever. Or maybe its to appreciate the kindness of strangers who help you with math. One thing I do know is, The final result: Group Shaun (+ the help of the nerdy girl) 1, Three Mean girls 0.

Hopefully errrrrbody's doing well out there,

-Shaun

P.S.- Big Ups on the D.U. win tonight, I think they could be real contenders come March.