The times have me thinking. About my full twenty years of life thus far, things I've done, places I've been and people I've known. I remember several years ago my father told me that I am becoming the man I will be for the rest of my life...thinking about this is deep. According to this philosophy, the way in which I interact with people, appreciate each moment and go about each day probably wont change. Can people change? Can I change? I know I have regrets, it must be possible to learn from my mistakes and become a better person from it. Becoming who you want to be in life is one of the hardest things to do, that's why everyone is given a whole life to do it. As each day passes, it will take you one day longer to become who you want to be.

Even though its 1:15 in the morning on July 13th, tonight is one of those nights where the black silhouette of the trees clashes with the fading gray sky. It looks like a winter night right after a snow storm let up.

I'm glad I'm writing this, its really therapeutic to just let your feelings flow. The conscience is an interesting thing, its like an emergency alert system right before a huge storm. I recently just re-experienced this feeling, of disappointment, guilt and shame. The more I reflect on it, the more meaning I can draw out. Its important to make mistakes and get checked by your conscience, the more guilty your conscience makes you feel, the better.

Strangely enough, the sky has become pitch black like it should be at this hour. One of the most important things in life is believing that things will become great again, no matter your current situation. If you lack this hope, I think you miss out on life. What is life? My best answer so far is what you can appreciate. Its how much you can understand, relate with and care about. Again, the more of this, the better.

I love remembering things that I thought I had entirely forgotten. No matter how important they were, its an amazing feeling to remember the smallest, most random things. Life must be lived with an open mind, a caring heart, forgiveness for others and redemption for oneself....all of which I plan to improve on.

Another blog coming soon, I feel like I'm more in touch with my blogging roots than ever before.

-Shaun